Monday, March 20, 2006

Mothering

Lately, I have been feeling quite crazy. I guess that it is just my horomones and lack of sleep that is getting the best of me. Being a mother is not what I thought that it would be. I guess my expectation was to be some sort of June Cleaver. I must say that is not who I am. Instead I am a cranky, sleep deprived, stinky cook, who loves her family.However I am a mother. Some days are better than others. I have for the most part quit trying to do things by the book. My child has not read the books so neither will I. Instead I will use my God given motherly instinct to help my child to grow. My plan is to also use my wife instinct to help my husband as well. Who I have lately been snapping at way too much. Sorry, honey I know that you love me and that you are just as sleep deprived as I. Our child will not be this little for much longer. In fact there have been a few nights that he has sleep almost nine hours. Our child is a gift from God and I want him to know it. I also want him to know the love that we share is real and that we love him.

Saturday, March 11, 2006

Not feeling perfect

I feel that there is so much pressure on moms. I am a stay at home mom who feels so much pressure to make sure that my child is taken care of to the best of my ability and meanwhile the house is suppose to be the cleanest it has ever been. The funny thing about this pressure for me is that it comes from me. I don't have an overbearing mother, mother-in-law or husband who tells me what I should or should not be doing with my child or that the house needs to be cleaner. In fact I have the best husband any girl could ask for. He goes to work and does not complain about coming home to a house that is not clean. There are usually dishes in the sink, the floor needs to be swept etc. So what I am asking is why in the world do I feel so much pressure to be so prefect? My only answer to that is that I like things to happen in an orderly fashion. I cannot stand it when my child who is sixth months old has just finished nursing and I pick him up to burp him and he starts to fuss or cry. I just want to look at him and say "What in the world have you been doing for an hour?" What I am learning is that he has not read all the books or websites that I have and he has no idea what he is suppose to be doing.

Therefore, I have come to the conclousion that as a parent I have to let it fly and whatever comes comes. I must take it one day at a time and lean on Jesus for support when things get crazy for me and I start feeling that I am not the perfect mother. Because it is then that I realize that I am not and there really is not such thing as the perfect mother. My children will love me because I was there for them when they needed me and I gave them love.

Friday, March 10, 2006

My first ever blog

Hello, everyone this is my first blog. I am very excited about using this blog to post my random thoughts and feelings about raising a christian family. My hope is to inspire others to be the best that they can be. I will hopefully be posting more as my time permits.